2 Weeks Later

Last Friday a week after my initial visit to my dr. I sat down with my dr. to talk about where I was at.  He said at my initial visit he was close to putting me in the hospital and I was 12, 15 being the worst he's seen.  Well at least I wasn't the worst.  He began by asking how I felt based on that scale.  I stated I felt I was a 7. Able to take care of my babies but not ready for social settings.  He felt like I was headed in the right direction.  I thanked him, really thanked him - he saved me (whether it be saved my life or took the pain away - he saved me).  Joy has reentered my life.  I am still on a boat load of medicine.  Not sure how long for, but as far as I am concerned I remember all too well sitting in the corner of my bedroom rocking and bawling for hours - I'll take the meds over that any day. 

I just really really want to thank so many people who have sent me text messages, phone messages, facebook messages daily to check on me and to see if I needed anything.  I will never forget your kindness and support. 

Tomorrow I visit my dr. again.  Kind of in the same place a 7.  I think it has a lot to due with Addison not nursing only taking bottles so I would be pumping and giving her bottles around the clock.  It was too much.  Turns out sweet girl has thrush (we found out today).  So she is in a lot of pain to nurse and taking the bottle is easier.  So she is on medicine and hopefully this will workout and we can get back to nursing.  I can't go on pumping around the clock with my two sweet boys that need me, so we will see how this turns out. 

Updates and pictures - I PROMISE!  Coming soon.  Thank you again xoxo